Lols. I've always been a shorty and I'm proud of it. Except when I'm standing next to Luen, Naomi or Kodie. I feel like a complete midget when that happens. No comment on how exams went, ye shall have to wait until the results are out which will be like next year. SMKTTDI is screwed up somewhere. They set the jadual ujian so that it ends on the 6 of Nov and then continues on the 19 and 20 which are the last two days of school. Retarted and wrong. I wonder what they think they're achieving by doing this besides giving us all a seriously good excuse to ponteng sekolah in between the 6 and the 19. Bodohkan. But there's nothing anyone can do besides just sit and do the exams.

I think I flunked BM Penulisan. I seriously think I screwed up. Naomi is you're reading this do not tell me that there is no way that I can fail a subject. That is completely untrue I can fail just like the rest of the rakyat remaja in Malaysia. And seni.... more dots first......... I was suppose to draw a nightmare scene but instead I drew something like a comic with a pocket watch sinking into the ocean while the bigger drawing in the middle is 2 puppets. They look like sausage people but whatever at least they looked decent and below that in boxes is a heart slowly cracking and in the final one it starts pouring out tears. Firstly in my defense I was sleep deprived and I had only color pencils to work with. Even I don't know what my drawing is about. Lols that is a really stupid thing to say.

Tomorrow is Science and Moral. Not looking forward to that at all. I wish I was a F3 student right about now. Kodie is off enjoying his freedom while I'm doomed to suffer worrying about my exams until the last day of school. How sucky. This reminds me of something my friend Hana, go check out her blog at www.thestarfishwaits.blogspot.com , said on her blog.

lols this ring is so cute, wish I could buy it. Check out the rest of the stuff www.cuteplush.com.

Ciao have to finish studying for penulisan tomorrow.

Hehe bribe me with chocolate and you can have anything you want. With a few exceptions.

Rubbish. That's all I have in my head. I can't remember a single word of sejarah or science but I can remember what I ate 2 weeks ago. Ignore that please humour loving people. I didn't even get a chance to study today. My dad whisked me off to Sungai Wang to grab a camera lenses he wants badly (my mom objects to it strongly) and so me and my sis was stuck wandering. Not exactly wandering, we were actually shopping. She wanted a pair of shoes while I wanted to grab some liquid eyeliner from elianto.

Yes the girl that make-up hates has finally bought eyeliner. And a couple of other things. Wanted to buy this awesome nailpolish but my dad had to ruin everything by being grumpy and questioning my right to wear make-up at 14. I plainly said papa(yeah that's what I call my dad) its either makeup or skimpy clothes, your choice and obviously he didn't say anything after that cause he'd rather in a million years let me wear makeup than skimpy clothes. Anyway everyone knows I would never wear skimpy clothes. I'd rather lepak in my jeans and a t-shirt, preferably a graphic one. And don't forget my comfy flip-flops (wanted to write slippers but thought flip-flops sounded better) from Ipanema. Yup that is all I wear when I go out. Most of the time. Kalau you ajak I pegi OU of course I'll throw on something different. Maybe a tanktop, a nicer pair of jeans, a hoody and my hightops. Tu je. Simple and fast so no one would ever have to wait for me. Lols untunglah my future boyfriends.

Gtg KH & Sejarah projects are calling me and I'm trying to hide. Ciao.

p.s / please don't tell them I'm hiding lols =D

I have not studied for finals. yet. shit.

Better start soon (in 10 minutes) or else I'm gonna fail or as the term fail normally known in my house : fei-low.

Officially the countdown to finals is 4 days 6 hours and 35 minutes or something like that. I'm feeling scared now so hasta-la-bye-bye! I'm off to stick my face in my books and try to absorb some form of knowledge into my thick cranium.

btw the post below this is seriously emo (as you may have noticed) cause I wrote it while I was sick and in serious pain (that's food poisoning for you) so just ignore it if you can but if you wanna read about my suffering than go right ahead but don't say I didn't warn you though.

My splitting headache greets you with a Hello! And now if only my mouth could do the same without letting the contents of my stomach say anything. Yes you've guessed, I have food-poisoning. It completely sucks. Can't watch tv, can't sleep and most of all can't go out.

No school for me today so at least I got a get out of school free card to use for sleeping. Better go my headache is returning and hopefully I'll be able to go to sleep without any pain.

and don't forget heart-warming, butterfly starting and not to mention exciting!Yup i finally got my first, second and third I love you's. I don't know whether they were meant to be friendly or what but still I got them and I'm down right happy about it. I can hardly contain sitting here and writing this.

Lols I couldn't resist posting something on my (wonderful?) blog. And anyway I have good news that can't wait till finals are over and anyways I have 4 days off from school for Deepavali. Lily's having a raya party at her house tomorrow and I've settled everything with my parents and grandmama all except the most important detail. The permission to go. What? My dad said we'll talk about it when he gets home from packing up his stuff at my other house. Lols I sound like my parents have split up and that they take turns taking care of me. Actually they just celebrated their 1 000 000 anniversary. Lols just kidding I think it was their 15th anniversary since I was born one year after they were married. Yay me to still having a whole family. Only thing missing is my grandpa. I still miss him sometimes. And yes I still cry. Can't help it when I feel bad or sad.

Enough sadness, I promised him when I visited his memorial thingy that I would live my life happy, just the way he always told me too. Here's something funny I thought of in the car on the way home when a flash of lighting (and don't forget the thunder, it gets jealous easily) made me jump up into the car roof. Ouch, and the bump that goes along with it isn't pretty.

The title is completely true. Yeah my dad has an earring so what?! It's a modern world and since we're on this topic I just wanna let you guys know that I think tatoos are cool. That comes partially from my dad having one on his upper left arm and also me wanting one since I was like 8. Weird I know but what can you do about it?

Watched Surrogates with the 'rents at OU and it was ok. Just wish I could text Kodie and tell him all about the movie. Ignore the last sentence, it sounds really stalker-ish. Oh yeah I forgot to say this in my last few posts.

lols, nah I'm just kidding. Honestly I'm the idiot, i lost my phone in singapore. Yes I lost my RM1000 phone in a public bathroom. I feel like a moron but luckily my mom got me a replacement sim and now I'm using a lameass phone that used to belong to my aunty. The worse part is that in my phone was a 2GB memory card with a thousand of the latest songs in it and also most of my pics. Lucky I uploaded them to my computer before leaving on Monday. Pheew

So now I'm gonna be saving every single cent. I'm only allowing myself RM5 spending money a week cause then I'd be able to have about RM1000 and that could get me an Iphone. Yippe here I come Iphone but unfortunately that means that everytime my friends go shopping I gotta either leave my money at home or not go at all. So sad.

I'm uploading my pics from singapore right now onto photobucket so maybe I'll upload them onto Handheld Rainbow tomorrow or maybe the day after seeing as my finals are in 2 weeks. I'm majorly not looking forward to that, heck no one is. I'm hoping I can at least get top 3 in class then I can get some money out of it and also be able to get into 3 Edison next year. The system my school has is so down right stupid and illogical. Heres the deal = My class has music and art students so the music students get priority and even though some of them are downright stupid they are allowed to stay in the same class in the following year while all the art students are the best and some of the best are kicked down into the crappy class. Stupidest system ever.

Oh no. I'm doing it again. I'm being really really bitchy. Yes there I said it I'm being bitchy. I'm being bitchy cause I lost my very nicest phone in the world and also cause I'm damn scared of my finals and I'm tired. Bye better stop typing if not I'm gonna start saying really bad things.

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That's what I would type if you asked me about my idea of love. Yes I admit it, I have no clue how it feels like to love someone or to have someone love me. I feel like a complete alien cause almost everyone I know has a boyfriend or girlfriend that they love or loved. Emphasis on the LOVE OR LOVED part. Maybe that's the reason why I read so many love stories. Hmmm... maybe I should stop reading them.

... nah it's the closest thing I can get to actually feeling like someone loves me. Sad rite? I'm such a lame excuse for a 14-year old girl. If my blog could make noises then I'd probably be making crying noises rite about now.

bye. I'm crawling under my patched quilt to feel sorry for myself. Let the mooping begin and may it end at dawn (before school starts hopefully).

Dinner with the family wasn't what I thought it would be. The food wasn't any good and the service was so bad. The only good thing that actually happened to me was that I saw my ex. He is so tall now I feel like a midget and I was wearing 4 inch heels for your information. Don't think he recognized me though cause the last time he saw me I had long hair and I never ever wore any makeup in front of him. He was going for dinner with his family while my family was jut leaving. I texted him on the way home in the car but he still hasn't texted me back yet. I'll just have to wait patiently until then. Maybe I'll study a bit of sejarah then.

I'm suppose to be going to support Eleina tomorrow at her bowling competition but papa won't let me go cause it's too late. I think he's just scared that I'll go off and get drunk with my friends. I would never do that cause firstly I don't like the taste of beer or any other kind of alchohol and second I would hate to have a hangover in the morning. I hate being sick so if I have a hangover I would just probably die. >Elena, if you're reading this I just wanna say I'm so so sorry I cant go<

I can't watch The Secret Life Of An American Teenager right now cause youtube is doing maintenance work. I'll try again in about 15 minutes until then I shall be studying.... sejarah something. As they say in France, Adieu!

babi. kena ban lagi. that means no computer for me for a month. but still rules were meant to be broken. I only risk it at night so jangan harap nak chat dengan i during the daylight hours. haha i sound like a vampire that only wakes up at midnight. kesian i kan.

finals is in like 23 days and i havent even opened a book yet. malas nak study. not like my subjects are interesting. except kh. i actually kinda like doing accounts in kh cause it's so easy. but all the other aku x suka. i'm watching the secret life of an american teenger on youtube so i'll make this post kinda short. i got my class photoes yesterday. i look like an idiot and it looks like my hair has a life of its own and i think it was emo that day. it was hanging half dead down my back. thank gosh i chopped off the dead thing and now i have a short crop and it looks good. gonna maintain this cut until... who knows when.

I just changed the skin for this blog. again. i can't really make up my mind on which one i like best. some are really nice but you can't comment and i really want you guys to comment some of the pics that i post up for example like the one below this post. v

it's 3 in the morning and i have panda eyes. i mean literally. i was messing around with my black eyeshadow and experimenting with it for tomorrow and now i can't get it off. tomorrow i've got dinner with the family to celebrate the mooncake festival. hopefully after that my dad will go yamcha (malay translation = pegi mamak minum teh tarik) with my malay uncle so i can get my duit raya. I'm so broke that all i drank in school was a can of ice lemon tea. kesian giler. oh yeah i forgot to mention that i feel really horrible now. all my ex-schoolmates from SK2 ,pegi rumah mira ke tasha i'm not sure, and they had a raya party. i don't blame them for forgetting me. i'm not pretty, not tall, not smart, not anything at all so i don't blame them for forgetting. but my partying days are just starting. hooray for having such crazy friends in high school. Lily and Zaf both want me to raya at their houses and so they already invited me. tomorrow i have a party with the fam and then on sunday i'm going to cineleisure to cheer on my dear friend eleina at her bowling competition. i'll be playing a game or two with lily or by myself. i need to polish up my skills again before i lose touch. i once scored through a whole game with strikes and spares.

and so here ends the post that i so ver clearly claimed would be short for the sake of my beauty sleep lol. ciao write more tomorrow if i can. =)