Usually I wouldn't even be nervous when I have to go out and meet people but for some reason tomorrow's class party unnerves me. I've never been so stressed out about looking good for my classmates before. Maybe it's cause I've never gone to a class party outside of school. I've decided on a casual look for tomorrow. It consists of a t-shirt, my skinny jeans, a camo jacket and my high-tops. Simple but totally me. I just hope I'm not too under dressed. Like I usually am.

After the (dreaded, i have no idea why i can't get the stupid crossout thing to work here) class party I'm going to watch A Christmas Carol all on my own. Sedihnya. Only reason I'm doing it is cause my parents can't pick me up after the party so I have to wait till my momma gets off from work which differs everyday so maybe it'll be 4, maybe 5.

Anyeong kaseyo! I need my beauty sleep if not I'll look like a zombie in the morning lols

p.s. youtube wedding dress by taeyang if you liked the music from my last post.

For the first day of holidays I've dedicated my time to listening to everything k-pop and finding new k-pop singers to listen to. Thanks to my dear friend Lily's recommendation I've found Girl's Generation, Rainbow, Mblaq, Big Bang, Super Junior and 2ne1. Here's my favs from each.

a series of pictures of what i don't have (yet....)

Rain rain go away.... Come again another day

We all know this song from when we were little kids and we all thought that if we sang it loud enough the rain would hear and then decide to terrorize some other kids. lols I wish I could be that age again. But unfortunately I can't but atleast there are perks to being 14. One of them being able to go out with friends. Which is exactly what I'm going to be doing this weekend with old friends. Can't wait to meet up with them all again after 2 years. God I miss them all especially Hana and Batrisyia.

Dang! What am I going to wear? As usual this is my dilemma when going out with friends. Well as usual I'll just end up in jeans, a t-shirt, maybe a vest and my high-tops or maybe my ipanema's.

So much for having a flawless tan. Instead I have a 3 inch bruise on my arm. All thanks to the parachute my mom & dad used for parasailing. My dad let me take his 5D and shoot them taking off and landing and also flying in the air so I was spamming on the drive mode while they were landing and my brain didn't even register the fact that I was in the way of the string tied to the parachute and the boat. So instead of running I got some really nice shots of my mom falling flat on her face in the sand cause she didn't run when she was suppose too. Lols it was kinda worth it but still I wish I hadn't been in the way cause it stings every time something brushes past it. Like now. Ouch!

Tomorrow I'm leaving the sunny island of Penang for home. Boohoo! I don't wanna leave. Mama says maybe kalau die nak we'll come back for christmas. Fingers crossed for that cause I really wanna be able to check out guys my age instead of having to shut my eyes when a really fat guy passes by. Ciao it's dinner time!

1 more day before I return to KL, back to a boring and waterlogged life. Man am I going to miss Penang. Unfortunately because of my grandmother (that spends every second nagging me and my sister about things we do) my parents have decided not to extend our holiday. Lols when they told me the reason I was rolling on the floor laughing.

The reason being that they find my grandmother very very annoying. I didn't even think that possible for my parents to find my grandmother so annoying. lols

I wanted to take some pics then upload them here but the batteries ran out so too bad. I'll be using my dad's 5D today at the beach so there will be some really stunning pics of the sunset and the beach in tomorrow's post. Or maybe the day after. =)

Ciao, going down to the pool for a swim and a tan.

I'm just intoxicated by you."

I'd never be able to say no to a guy if he used this on me. The pickup line a day thing on facebook is pretty neat. Trying to find the ones that I would definitely fall for.

***** = *Ahem* Would you mind waiting here a second. [runs into the nearest bathroom to make sure my face isn't all red from blushing]
**** = [utterly speechless]
*** = wow can't believe he said that
** = pardon, could you repeat that.
* = bye!

I'm not drunk, I'm intoxicated by you ***

Do you have a map? I'm getting lost in your eyes ****

Most people like to watch the Olympics, because they only happen once every 4 years but I'd rather talk to you cause the chance of meeting someone so special only happens once a lifetime ***************************

You must be a hell of a thief because you stole my heart from across the room *****

You shouldn't wear make-up! It's messing with perfection! ****

I was so enchanted by your beauty that I ran into that wall over there. So I am going to need your name and number for insurance purposes. ***

If beauty were a time, you'd be eternity *****

You're so beautiful you made me forget my pick-up line **** lols this is a funny one

Miss, if you've lost your virginity, can I have the box it came in? ** weird but oddly fascinating

lols there are loads more but I'm just too lazy to write them all in this post. The one I would just die for is "you must be a hell of a thief because you stole my heart from across the room". I would kill for a guy to tell me that but at first I would probably be shocked if a guy said that too me. The "You're so beautiful you made me forget my pick-up line" one is also okay but that would just make me laugh and look like a moron. Anyways it's been a long day and I need to get my beauty sleep cause tomorrow I'm off to play water volleyball.

Did I mention that the boy-watching has not been going well. There aren't any guys my age that look good. Even the boys in my school look better than them. I'm just hoping that in the next few days more foreign guys my age will get here cause it's so boring without any friends to hang out with. Peace out people!

hey hey! Penang is awesome! The sun has been nice and I've even gone a skin shade darker. lols I'm the opposite of everyone. I actually want a tan! Todays my momma's birthday so I'm hoping that she wants to hang around the poolside cause I wanna go boy-watching. lols this is the only good thing that comes with being single.

Oh yeah I completely forgot the original intention of writing this.

I won't be updating for the next one week sampai I'm back from my holiday in Penang. Will try to blog about it when I get back and also maybe some pictures will come up if I'm lucky enough to get batteries for my camera in time before I leave. Ciao chickas! Enjoy the lonely hallways of school for the next one week while I'm getting a wicked tan in Penang! lols I'm so evil

Hey babe! Just so you know , I miss you! Hanging out sounds great just text me when you're free and I'll reschedule whatever's in the way. I'm sorry if there's a lack of words here but I'm just so shocked that you remember me and that you have the picture of me playing clue-do dengan azi. Lols and to reply to that embarassing event all i have to say is, in my defense i was a scatterbrain back then and i still am till now. I have a picture of the both of us and I would have posted it but my camera habis battery and I don't have a scanner so maybe I'll post it up after I locate some batteries in my house. Ciao!

Just a little song I came up with after finishing my last exam. I can't help singing random things that pop into my head when I'm excited so this is the result of over-stressing and freaking out : a little weird random song.

The only thing I'm stressing about right now is the results and the class I'm being put into next year. If I'm thrown backwards into Rhazes I swear i akan nangis depan semua kawan I cause even the thought of it throws my emotions into freefall. Bring out the camera's cause no one is ever gonna see me cry after that. The same thing will happen if I get into Edison, they may not be sad tears exactly but I assure you there will be tears.

Everyone from SMKTTDI is probably out with friends or at home doing things they weren't allowed to masa exam. Me on the other hand, I'm shopping for stuff to take with me to Penang for 2 weeks. Yep confirm I pegi Penang for 2 weeks. Hooray! Next year I'm gonna be going back to school with an awesome tan, provided I don't get sunburnt. Baru beli a bikini from Roxy today to make sure I look good when I get there cause I'm going to be doing lots of swimming and lying on the grass and snoozing.

My papa gave me another lesson in Photography 101. And once again I'm trying to remember everything he said. Whoever said photography is Just taking pictures I would like to prove you wrong by asking my papa to explain to you the complex workings of a little machine we call a SLR camera. Damn it's hard to remember but still I can't help loving photography. It's just something I love doing and hopefully will continue loving cause over the past few years I've switched from one hobby to another like you would change t-shirts.

My extreme exhaustion is catching up with me. Before I sign off I would like to offer up a piece of advice : Masa exam akhir tahun don't stay up till 4 in the morning studying it only causes you to fall asleep during the exam and not be able to finish it. Peace out.

4 more papers to go before I taste freedom. I bet everyone is slowly awaiting the last day of finals. I'm slowly awaiting the moment when school ends and me and Naomi can start screaming and being histerically happy. lols can't wait.

No comment on today's papers cause I do not desire to think about it at the moment. But tomorrow is a completely different story. Geo [cue scary trumpets]. I absolutely loathe Geo. I study and understand it but when the paper is in front of me I just blank out. My brain just draws a complete blank like someone shook me and all the stuff I studied fell out of my head. Weird way to explain it but that's the only way I know how.

For the past week I've been experiencing nostalgia. Yeah I used that fancy word that means remembering the past. I keep thinking about how much fun I use to have when I didn't have to worry about tests and pleasing my dad with good grades. Now everything's changed. I'm expected to be the best just cause I'm 14. Emphasis on the 14 part.

Lily did the worst thing she could have ever done to me. She dragged me to a guys house. Farid to be exact. Hakim and the gang semua met us there and I felt awkward sampai nak mati cause they talk about stuff that I can't even understand so I just laugh. According to Zaf when she first started hanging out with them she did the exact same thing I'm doing. Another useful piece of advice Lily and Zaf gave me was that I shouldn't try to understand I should just ikut. I learnt that the hard way a few years ago. The more you try to understand the more you don't understand and sometimes it may come off as annoying to the people you're trying to understand. In my defense I can say that I didn't do anything stupid so I did pretty good. And the at first I thought everyone thought of me as an outsider tapi they're actually pretty cool about me being there with them. They're a bunch of really fun people so honestly I love being there just not so sure about the awkwardness I feel. Harap-harap it'll dissapear after a few more times of hanging out with them. Peace out people I gotta be studying for Geo or else I'll have a permanent kick mark on my ass courtesy of my dad lols =D

The only thing playing on my ipod is owl city and k-pop now. thanks to lily who so sweetly introduced me to this drug/genre of music. stupid big bang. why do you guys have to sound so good and look hot at the same time.

Finals has me on edge till I popped a blood vessel in my eye this morning. Go fgures it was during maths paper 1. The moment teacher finished collecting the papers Carlos rushed up to me and started comparing answers. That guy/gay is so obsessed with being perfect that he compares everything he does to whoever is better at it than he is. I was just too sleeping and blur not to answer so whatever I knew the answers to I just told him. I only did it cause it was after exams. If he had asked me before I wouldn't have answered him cause then I'm helping the enemy score more than me in exams. Hehe feeling mighty evil tonight.

I have nothing else to write or as Hana put it 'insert here' anymore so [drumroll please] I'm off to my bed. lols not feeling evil but feeling entirely weird and stupid.

Today is so boring that I have found no inspiration to do anything all day. So here is one of those annoying survey things that let you know me better.

The last person you had a thing with comes up to you and says "I'm sorry"?
x ingat

What is the relationship between you and the last person you texted?
entahlah. it's seriously complicated

Do you dislike anyone?
yes for some unknown reason

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
not that i can remember

Are you ready to get out of this town?
never.

Who is the first person you would call if you needed help?
kodie =) even if i called anyone else they wouldn't pick up their damn phones

What is currently on your mind?
the occasional day-dream about my first kiss, sejarah, my life, sejarah

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
no I find myself more confusing more than anything else

Are you happier now or four months ago?
definitely now.

Did the last person you kissed name start with a D, B, N, R, or A?
none of the above. no first kiss yet.

Do you listen to love songs when you're down?
depends on what kind of down, but mostly yeah

What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
my birthday and valentine's day!

Do you give out second chances too easily?
yes

Are you open with your feelings to people?
depends on who you are and what you mean to my

Do you have a good relationship with your sister/ brother?
sure. minus the occasionally screamfest and punch in the back.

Where would you rather be right now?
in my dreams sitting in his lap cuddling him. lols day-dreaming again =)

What's upset you the most in the past week?
damn finals and the fact that i didn't get to talk to him

Spell your name with out L?
lols it'll be michee but i use it as a nickname anyways so no difference

Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
nop. with 2 hours of slowly i doubt anyone would be happy

Does anyone have feelings for you?
i hope so

How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?
click your fingers and i'll be in dreamland

How many people do you trust fully?
a few je

When you're bored in class, what do you usually do?
whip out my sketchbook and start doodling and writing random words that turn into lyrics

Is it ok to like someone else when you have a bf or gf?
yes if that person is yourself lols. haha i just had to find the loophole to that question

Have you ever kissed someone with a lip or tongue ring?
no first kiss yet

Who is the next person you will kiss?
i have no idea

Anything happen to you within the past month that has made you really angry?
yep!

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
not that i can think of

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
jeez, kan i dah kata i x pernah first kiss!

Are you more of a cat or dog person?
dog. i love puppies

Would you rather someone lie to protect you or be honest and hurt you?
depends on what the truth is

Are you excited for winter?
yes cause i'll be in penang and the guys from Europe will be in penang too for their winter break woohoo!

Do you have a friend that is a complete and total flirt around everyone?
haha yeah i feel like copying her but it's just not my style

Last person you talked to on the phone?
my mama

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
for sure. kalau x de orang suka i den i must be perfect but i'm not sadly

Are you mad at someone right now?
x de ah

Have you kissed someone in '09 that means a lot to you?
my daddy =D

How did you get your last bruise?
masa tgh workout dengan adik i

Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Naomi kot.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
yes and everytime i see them i'll have a smile plastered to my face ( a real smile not fake)

Ever walked on a rooftop?
nop but I really want to especially at night

Would you ever consider living with anyone on your top friends?
absolutely mesti best kalau tinggal dengan kawan

Ever kept arguing even after you realized you were wrong?
Yeah i dun like to lose

When you say you don't care do you mean it?
Sometimes

When meeting someone new, are you afraid they won't like you?
[nods shyly]

What are you doing Saturday?
enjoying the freedom that is end of finals!!!

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
nop i want to go forward in time to see how my life turns out

Who last made you laugh?
Zahirul, Lily, Zafira, Sarah and my family

Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
Yes. Bengang gila grrr!

My brain has melted. Since 5 I've been so rajin and studying maths but now I'm trying to remember and I find that I can't remember a single damn formula. Omigod I'm completely and utterly screwed. Maybe listening to some Owl City will cure me. Hopefully. Did I mention I love Owl City? lol I think the guy sounds so dreamy and the songs sound so lullaby-ish. The lyrics are so simple and they actually rhyme. I would never be able to write songs like he does. Fater hearing Fireflies I got hooked on his voice so I downloaded the rest of the album and I only have 1 word : sweet.

While I was listening to Fireflies I unconscienly doodled a garden filled with ten million fireflies just like in the song and in the middle of the garden was a bed with a guy lying in it with his eyes closed. Gonna try watercoloring it to make it look even better. Maybe I'll frame it up as my first masterpiece lol.

Well I'd better be going back to my lovely (NOT!) books or else I'll probably end up in Rhazes next year and turn into a useless person.