4 more papers to go before I taste freedom. I bet everyone is slowly awaiting the last day of finals. I'm slowly awaiting the moment when school ends and me and Naomi can start screaming and being histerically happy. lols can't wait.

No comment on today's papers cause I do not desire to think about it at the moment. But tomorrow is a completely different story. Geo [cue scary trumpets]. I absolutely loathe Geo. I study and understand it but when the paper is in front of me I just blank out. My brain just draws a complete blank like someone shook me and all the stuff I studied fell out of my head. Weird way to explain it but that's the only way I know how.

For the past week I've been experiencing nostalgia. Yeah I used that fancy word that means remembering the past. I keep thinking about how much fun I use to have when I didn't have to worry about tests and pleasing my dad with good grades. Now everything's changed. I'm expected to be the best just cause I'm 14. Emphasis on the 14 part.

Lily did the worst thing she could have ever done to me. She dragged me to a guys house. Farid to be exact. Hakim and the gang semua met us there and I felt awkward sampai nak mati cause they talk about stuff that I can't even understand so I just laugh. According to Zaf when she first started hanging out with them she did the exact same thing I'm doing. Another useful piece of advice Lily and Zaf gave me was that I shouldn't try to understand I should just ikut. I learnt that the hard way a few years ago. The more you try to understand the more you don't understand and sometimes it may come off as annoying to the people you're trying to understand. In my defense I can say that I didn't do anything stupid so I did pretty good. And the at first I thought everyone thought of me as an outsider tapi they're actually pretty cool about me being there with them. They're a bunch of really fun people so honestly I love being there just not so sure about the awkwardness I feel. Harap-harap it'll dissapear after a few more times of hanging out with them. Peace out people I gotta be studying for Geo or else I'll have a permanent kick mark on my ass courtesy of my dad lols =D